Love.
Love, they say, is the most powerful emotion known to mankind. Even though I have experienced it, I am still terrified of it. It is not something to be dealt with lightly.
I have told someone that I loved them while still being unsure of it. When we me one another face to face, I knew I didn’t love him. I was in love with the idea of him. The animosity of loving him over the internet.
I love to a fault but hold caution when it comes to falling in love. I have both hurt and been hurt when it comes to being in love. If I can spare another human being from heartbreak from me not being so sure of my love, then I will.
At the same time, however, I am scared to fall in love. What if I give my love, my heart, my soul to the wrong person again? Why am I even holding my love back when it is something that should be freely given? There is no reward without risk.
Not every person is the same. Not every person wants to manipulate or hurt me. So why is it, even knowing that to be true, I am still cautious to love? Is it because I was hurt so deeply the first time?
I have no answer. But I do know I have been holding back as of late. In a lot of different ways.
Pure, unconditional love is what I’ve always wanted. Now I’m standing before the demons of my past in silence. Mulling over what I can do or say to make them back down.
Breathe.
Don’t think. Just do.
Love shouldn’t be so hard. It’s the easiest thing to do. Stop over thinking. Just give yourself over to the feeling.
Some words of wisdom:
Age is only a number. You won’t care about the person’s age if they are meant to be.
Fall in love with a soul, not a body.
Fall in love using your heart. Not your eyes.
There is time to obsess over the future. Experience the now.
Never be so obsessed with the end, you miss the beginning.
Don’t be so scared of the fall that you miss the feeling of weightlessness. Don’t stress over if the person will catch you. Trust wholeheartedly that they will. Otherwise, it’s not really love without trust.
Love is nothing without trust and respect.
Communication is key. How are they supposed to fall in love with you over and over if they don’t know what you’re feeling or going through?
Every day is a new adventure. Don’t forget to live it. Even if it is just sitting on the couch in sweats binging on Netflix.
Let them in. Tell them your secrets, hopes, and dreams. Let them become part of your life. It’s not so easy to fall in love with someone you don’t know. (No matter what the books or movies say.)
Don’t. Hold. Back. If you’re going to fall in love, do it with everything you have.
Let them save you, so you can save them right back.
Breathe in. Exhale. Breathe in. Exhale. Don’t think. Just do. Forget the past and start living now.
Remember you are breathing.
Sincerely,
LifeBlocked
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